Sunday, 2 August 2015

The move is happening!

I do apologize for the inconvenience but I have moved, to a land far far away.

No, I just made that new blog I wanted to, a little rebranding happening.

You are welcome to come by.

Sparks In The Horizon!


Missy.

Saturday, 1 August 2015

On the 1st day of Blaugust!

Blaugust Day 1!
What, it has been a whole year already? A whole year since the first time I joined in the Blaugust challenge for the first time. Now I don't have my posts to look back upon because I have moved around from one blog to another, and chances are, I will move again at one point :P But that does not matter, I remember last years challenge well, it was TOUGH!

I struggled after the first 2 weeks, but I did finish the whole event and felt a big relief at the end of it.
This year I have one serious goal with the Blaugust, to post 15 posts. I may post each day of the entire month, but I am not making any promises to you or to myself, just to take some of the pressure off.



Luckily I have been super eager to write these past few days, so Blaugust could not have come at a better time. I want to wish everyone who is participating the best of luck! Even if you don't finish the challenge, you joined in, contributed and tried your best. The important thing is that you tried. But I am sure there will be many who will finish and it is going to be fun to follow all of you, even though it's gonna be a hell of a lot to read. I imagine I will have a BF complaining because I am so focused on reading stuff on my laptop instead of listening to him talk about gadgets, as he usually does ;)

Progressing on my list for WoW

Yesterday I wrote up a little list of things to do in WoW.
First things first, leveling up!
I started a new main, my hunter. She has actually leveled quite fast and is now at level 44!

While we were leveling, Sparkles the celestial dragon, really felt like sightseeing so we had to stop by an elder tree to take a photo, Sparkles was way to eager, but we got the photo and he is now a very happy dragon!



When Sparkles finally calmed down, we made our way to Stormwind, but then Rohan, the two headed pup, had to go make a friend... So we ended up having to take another photo. My pets are really eager with their instagrams. I can't believe it, but as I am a kind Draenei, I could not say no to him!


I did some pet battles, not to many, but I managed to get a few pets up to level 4. I did not stop to fight every single pet I found, because there were pets everywhere so I decided to just battle when I felt like it instead. But at least I have started on the pets.

I have not picked up any professions yet, I decided that I wanted to do that after I had leveled up to 100. Hopefully, if I am not busy tomorrow, I can reach level 60 and head out to Outlands. There I will do some serious question to earn some cash as I have none. Well, I have earned around 50 Gold, but what can you do with that these days? Perhaps buy some cheese?


Yes, I could buy cheese so I guess I can't complain. Cheese is good, cheese is nice!

Rebranding.

On another note.. Geeze, I say that a lot don't I.
I have talked about this before, but it never happened. I want to rebrand. I have mentioned it multiple times, but I always end up not doing anything, either because I get a bit uneasy when people say don't do it, or because people are tired of me being so indecisive because I have moved back and forth with my blog.

Why do I want to do that?
For one, I want and need a change. I do not want to be labeled the anxious gamer anymore. While I still am an anxious person, I am on the path to recovery and I don't want my hobby to put this label on me anymore. I don't want people who have never been to my blog before and just think I am the anxiety. I am not, I have anxiety, but it isn't who I am.

I will always be Missy, I like the nickname and I will keep Missy. But I am unsure about the Mojo. I do like it - Missy's Mojo, it has a ring to it. But on the other hand, I don't feel any uniqueness with the word Mojo, and don't really feel Mojo suits me either.

Feel free to comment on it, if you disagree that is totally cool. But in the end, many people have rebranded after many years of blogging, going through many names and blogs. Sure it will hurt my blog to rebrand, change URL and whatnot. But this is not my livelihood or job, I don't have thousands of angry followers who will complain. If 4 people will stop coming over, so be it.

Look at me being all serious and harsh.

Anyways, I have no idea what I should rebrand to.
I have made up a list of words / keywords that I like, that has something to do with me and my hobbies and I thought I could try and mix and mash to see if there was anything that could sound nice, and feel right.


  • Gaming
  • Cloaks
  • Couch (yeah, I play on the couch okay :p)
  • Norwegian
  • Blog
  • Bows and Arrows
  • 80s (80s are the best mkay)
  • Girl
  • Chick
  • Nerd
  • Geek(y)
  • Nice
  • Bubbles ( I love bubbles)
  • Sparks/Sparkly/Sparkles (and sparkly things)
  • Sweet
  • Weird (yeah I don't mind weird, cause I am a bit weird)
  • Clouds
  • White
  • Lazy
  • Horror, horrifying, scary things
  • Screenshots, I love doing them
Yeah I am kind of stuck on words for the moment
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Also thought of some names for the blog, which is laughable cause I lack imagination.

  • A dash of Missy (think someone suggested A dash of Mojo to me once)
  • A Bubble for your thoughts ( a bit to similar to  A Freckles for your thoughts though :/ )
  • A Bubble of Thoughts
  • Missy's Massively Online Gaming or MMOG for short (suggested by CrowingOne)
I am not thinking that the name should be aimed at gaming, because I do like to share other things, so a random sentence is something I am aiming for.

Anyways, thanks for stopping by. I hope you all will enjoy the Blaugust Event and good luck!
Leaving you some links to Bel's site (the organizer)
And to Anook!



Friday, 31 July 2015

The not so new adventure begins.

I have found out that I need to figure out some reachable goals for myself within the mmo's I play, which is FFXIV ARR and WoW.

So the first thing I want to do is set up some goals, without any timetable, but just a little list I can follow as I do play and progress.

Goals for WoW.




- Select a main. 
I don't feel WoW is a very alt friendly game anymore, so I need to pick a class that I will do everything on, so I can get some sense of accomplishment. Only reason to play is to try and get that feeling, it's what makes gaming fun for me, and probably a lot others?

Less dungeons, more questing.

- Engage in pet battle as I see pets.
I have never bothered with pet battles, it is time to begin.

Not get flying until it was intended in the expansions.

- Level up to level 100.

- Get Garrison and Shipyard up to speed.

-Level up a profession. 
While professions are not important anymore, it can be a lot of fun and it always feels like an accomplishment when finished.

- Get my first pet to level 25.

- Apexis daily to gear up.

- LFR to gear up.

- Get the next mount achievement.
I have 106 and the next achievement is for 150, so there is a lot to do there.

- Explore all maps.
While I have done most of the exploring on other characters, I want this one to have it all! ALL!

I have actually started with one goal already!
In WoW, I decided a hunter should be the main. It is a nice solo character, it can also collect it's own set of rare pets which give me an extra thing to do. They usually have at least one spec that is decent.

I knew I wanted alliance, but the I was unsure of the race, either Night Elf or Draenei. I ended up with - BABABABAAAM:


Just because I think armor look great on them, and they have nice curves!
With that done, I can actually scratch of one of my goals, I just need to focus on this character and not get distracted to much of others that I have.


It's going to be a long road, but I have done it before and shall do it again. Thankfully it doesn't go as slow as this snail that was stranded on the beach and for some reason is eager to get to the ocean.

I have already gotten my first pet, meet Rohan - the two headed pup, most of you have probably seen him before as he isn't really that rare because he is a mob that needs killing in a quest at the draenei starter area.


Here we are, getting to know each other, joined by the celestial dragon Sparkles.

I am already level 12 so this is going pretty good so far and I have ended up at Darkshore to continue our questing up to level 20!

Goals for Final Fantasy ARR.





- Get Conjurer to 30 

- Get Arcanist to level 15

Unlock White Mage 

- Get Warrior to 30

- Get Marauder to 30

- Start with gathering professions.

So there I have some goals to reach and it should keep me busy in the games. Now that they are on black and white, I hope to actually do them!


Am I a self absorbed douche?

Here's what I am thinking. Thoughts I have touched on before.
Over the last year I have gotten myself some good hobbies. I blog, I make gaming videos, I vlog, started to draw and we can't forget that I also do play games.

But I got to admit, I want to have that one thing that I do well, I mean very well.  Don't we all wish that?



How can I write this without sounding like a self absorbed douche...

I don't want to become a famous person , that's not what I mean  but I do have a desire to earn myself a decent following, with some descent traffic. Whether it be because of blogging /drawing or because of Youtube. But I know that is something that wont happen, it is not realistic to expect to get a few thousand of followers with blogging anymore, not in this genre, especially not the way I write. Since I write to much random, and too little specifics.

What is hindering me in getting traffic to the blog?
- Not enough content
- Don't write to regularly
- To varied content, not specific enough and to personal
- Bad writer
- Indecisive -  changed blogs a few times, change theme too often

It is probably possible on Youtube, but to be perfectly honest, can I really be a sort of YouTube personality? The slow growth I have been having, may be because of a couple or reasons that I can think of.
- I am not fit for making videos when it comes to personality
- I don't work hard enough, not consistent
- I pick wrong games
- Don't promote myself well enough
- And in the end not motivated enough

But in a way I guess I have reached a goal in some manner. Because of the NBI a lot of people do know of my name in some sense, I do join in on a lot of the blogging activities so I shall not be negative.

But I wish to find that burning desire and motivation, to gather more focus into a thing.
Yes this is all hobbies, this is all for fun. But I want to get more sense of accomplishment. Is that a bad thing?

While these are just thoughts that comes to mind sometimes, I am really interested in finding one thing I want to give more focus too. Not be okay at many things, but good at one thing. That is what I wish for.

So time to sit down, think, write pros and cons for different hobbies and see what it's best for me to focus most on.

On another note, I did a guest post today. I was invited, probably as many others :P heh, but still I was invited to write a post, and I accepted. It's a nice way to get my name around and good practice to write a bit better. It is a new blog but, still, good fun for me.

If the post is good or not, meh, I don't know. I felt it was pretty much "me", in the sense that it's pretty much a post I would write here.

Post is here.
I write a bit about WoW, being casual, and ask if the game has become to casual.

Thanks for taking the time to stop by.

Missy.

Thursday, 30 July 2015

Gaming Block?

Gaming

I am currently playing a bit of WoW and I am subbed to FFXIV. And I feel eager to play, but the moment I start up the games I am at a loss as to what to do. I used to be good at giving my self some goal, so I could play, but at the moment I am just sitting there, what is the point. There is no point in playing games in the end, but on the other hand there is the point of entertainment. Guess I have come to a place where I am a bit stuck, thinking, why should I struggle so hard to make myself goals just to game?! Such a silly way of thinking about gaming though isn't it. MMO's have always been about setting your self goals and going for it.

Night Elf DK, pink hair, flying, outlands


Maybe it's time I sit down and start writing down some goals, so that it's easier for me too look at and doing them. Like - set an amount of gold I want to earn or leveling professions and such.

It all comes back down to the raiding part I think, deep down that is the thing that's holding me back from enjoying the games I play. I feel those lingering thoughts that I HAVE to raid in order to gain anything from the games. But is that really true? Loads of people play mmo's without raiding and have a good fulfilling time with the games, so why can't I ?

It's so strange that I can block myself so much from enjoying the games. Tsk tsk Missy, so silly.

I have my Miqoté in Bel's FC. And while I enjoy being there and love the people, I can't help but feel a bit lonely. It's my own fault, I don't really engage much when I am on. Guess I miss the time when I was on skype a lot with some people when I was on the Odin. But on the other hand, I can't sit on skype all day either. I do live with someone. But I do wish I had a leveling partner sometimes, only drawback of that is that I have to play at set times, and I hate that now. I want to play when I feel like it.

Female Miqote, yellow clothes, serpent


I know my two brothers are playing FFXIV too, but they are on an asian server. And it seems the FC is full anyways, and I don't think I want to level two characters either cause I don't want to leave Bel's FC.
See the silly things here, stops me from playing all together cause I can't even make up my mind where to play. I set such stupid barriers for myself. Is it me, telling myself I just shouldn't play at all? Heh, maybe it is. It's just my indecisive self taking control.

Maybe I should go back to doing what I do best, playing just to take screenshots !!?

Camping trip cancelled

As some of you heard, my camping trip was cancelled, which is a bummer. Nemo has been sick, vomiting a lot, having big swellings on his body and itchiness. It seems he keeps on getting allergic reactions of some sort. We still don't know what it is, we took a blood test, he is on a dose of cortisone. Because of that he cannot go on the trip that was planned.

We are all bummed out because of that, espesially dad who was planning the whole thing.
But we hope that in 2 weeks or so we can try again, if the weather is not to cold and damp.

Hopefully we can figure out what is wrong with Nemo soon, yesterday he could hardly see on one of his eyes because it was so swollen up. He seems okay now though, well he is on medicine so. He does not have an infection, the blood-test showed us that much, and we have sent in a picture of him to some dude that apparently knows a hell of a lot about these things.

Drawing

I am continuing to draw. I experimented with some water paint in my Clip Studio Paint, while I am not happy with the drawing, I learned a lot from it and maybe next time the result will become better.


The biggest issue I still have, is the hair. but then again I haven't really tried looking it up on how to do it. I think it's just something that will come with a lot of practice. I really do hate this painting the more I look at it, but only way to learn is to keep on drawing and painting. The good thing is as with all the painting is that I can look back upon them and see what I did wrong and all that shiz.

This is the next drawing I am going to try working on.

I am usually happy with my sketching and outlines, but when I go in with the color pencil, things start to fall apart :P I think I might have to find some tutorials today to see if I can't get some help on coloring the hair. I think the hair is as important as the eyes to make the image pop and look good. So here is hoping I can do something better today then previously. I could always just close the gaps on the strands of hair and fill it color but time will tell how I deal with it.

I have started trying to color her, she is obviously not done and I might just remove everything and start again, but yeah TUTORIALS here I come!



Blaugust

As some of you know, Blaugust is soon upon us. The event Bel is holding, where we write a blog-post each day of the month of August. I participated last year, but I am not sure if I am joining this year. Knowing me, I probably can't resist the challenge, BUT last year was a hard nut. I struggled a lot and since I am not writing as often as I used to it's going to be tough. I got burned out last year, and I am not wanting that to happen again, so I might have to hold myself back and resist the urge to join. But if you want to join, head over to Bel and read up on it :)

Monday, 27 July 2015

Finished some drawings, with color!

So, I have finally finished coloring my drawing. It took some time for me to get my arse in gear to color it, but now it's done. I hope you like it. Keep in mind this is my first drawing on tablet, and first time ever coloring one of my drawings. Don't think I have colored in anything since I drew maps in school for geography when I was like 14, hehe.

Anyways, here is the first of hopefully many!

Drawing, manga, missy's mojo


After I finished that one, I decided I wanted to try and draw my character from WoW. I have tried many times to draw from WoW and always failed miserably. But this time I tried a bit of my own touch instead of trying to be so damn correct and this is what I ended up with. I want to make it better, but I need more practice, but I think it was a decent start.

Here is my night elf.

my first drawing of nelf, missy's mojo

At least they look totally different with different styles. I am happy I can switch it up a bit and not just draw the same thing over and over again.

I am really happy I started, it is so much fun! Even though my hand is now hurting from drawing, guess I am not used to it...

Saturday, 25 July 2015

Drawing,camping and vlogging!

Oh.. Hi guys'n'gurls! How are you?
Today is the time of sharing. Sharing is caring.
I bring to you a little vlog, or shall I say vlogging challenge.
Havoc Turtle - A youtuber tagged me to do this, so I did !


It's pretty simple.
Get a flowerpot, some dirt and a seed. Plant the seed, and BAM, challenge done.
Everyone can do this if they want to, then take a picture, vlog or blog about it. Just label it #mediaplants for Turtle to see it.

Just be careful if you are digging for dirt.
I was going into one of our flowerbeds yesterday, and I dug up a spider. I remained calm even though they freak me out, and I got the spider of my little spade. But, BUT, when I dug once more into the dirt.......... 100s of tinytinytiny spiders came on to my spade. I HAD DUG UP ALL THE BABBYS!! God, the sight of all those spiders, there were so many. It was so creepy, soooooooo creeepyyy. It was like a spawn from a horror movie. *shiver* It was horrible. So I quickly decided to not use that dirt, and went for one of the bags of dirt we bought for planting instead. YUCK!!!

My drawing quest continues..

I got my drawing tablet now, as you can see in the video, and I showed off my first drawing on Twitter yesterday. For those who are not there, or not following me, here it is!


I am very happy with it. Since I am still incredibly bad at drawing hair, I decided to go with short hair for my first drawing, and I think it turned out pretty cute. I still need to color it in though, that's going to be very fun, with shading and all that stuff, to make it pop!

So yeah, I am very happy about getting that tablet, it is so much fun!!! I hope I will continue drawing so I can get better at it, cause this took quite some time for me, but for others it would probably just take like 20 minutes or so. Not going to tell you how long a time I used on it, haha. I am still not happy with the legs though, but ey. They look better then they did at start, they were like sausages :P

I would just like to add that I think everyone can draw, it just takes some time and practice. Start out with a head, and get good at it, then move on to other things.

Camping

Today we are going to a sports shop - XXL, to buy some sleeping bags and other small things, cause we might go camping soon with my dad. I am really looking forward to it. It's been a while to say the least. I haven't gone camping since I was a little girl, and that was with my dad as well. I am really happy he wanted to go with us, spend some real time with him. I do  miss him a lot, even though we live close by. I don't feel like a coffee visit is enough sometimes, so I am glad I can have a whole weekend with him.

Nightmare

Ugh, I had the worst dream last night. I am not sure what the hell was going on, but it all ended with my brother dying in a car-accident. It just happened all of the sudden, and he was gone. It felt so damn realistic, it was horrible, It just happened in an instant you know, all I could think of was that life was so short, and suddenly a loved one was gone in an instant. I cried so hard in my dream that I woke up with tears in my eyes. Those dreams are the kind of dreams that are hard to shake off, you wake up with a knot in your stomach that takes a while to get rid of. Why can't we just have happy dreams of flying on clouds with unicorns and cotton candy I say...

Wednesday, 15 July 2015

Be Happy, Stay positive, Smile.

While I haven't reached a 150 subs on my channel yet, I am still 5 away.
I am still going to do a silly dance. I asked for help for my 150 subs vlog and people suggested dancing for some reason.
Now, I didn't do a specific dance like Joseph asked, this is just me, moving around showing the world that I CAN'T dance :P But I CAN record !

This is basically a video where I talk a bit about trying to stay positive, be happy and things like that. If it makes sense or not, if it will help anyone or not, that is unknown.  I just felt I wanted to do something, talk to you all. And be silly at the same time :)
Sure I might be making a fool out of myself, but I don't care haha, I just want to be happy, I want to bring a smile on other peoples face. So if just ONE person smiles from my video, I have victoryyyyyyyy!!!


Sunday, 12 July 2015

Insanity? Or not?

Something messed up happened to me yesterday. Not sure if it's something worth writing and sharing or not. But I just got a bit , I don't know, kind of shocked perhaps?

So, last year I went for walks with Nemo each day in the summer time, because Eirik was working.
And on some occasions I got invited to the neighbor I walked past, for a coffee, because she had a dog.
I visited multiple times, and after a while we finally introduced ourselves. Yeah it took several visits for her to even ask my name.

I visited her and her dog, maybe 10-15 times that summer. Summer past, and she got sick. I didn't visit, because I thought she wanted to spend time with her family and relax, as she was to sick to be active and things like that, and every time me and Nemo went past, she was never outside. We only visited when we walked past on our daily walk, and she was outside inviting us.

I said hello through her husband who I met when walking the dog, as he also walked his dog.
Eirik, my BF also sent them best wishes through her husband when he met him.

Hope you understand my brilliant English here.

Anyways, yesterday, this lady was out for a walk and met Eirik.
And she lashed out on him.
She said she was terribly disappointed in us, that we acted the way we had, not saying hi, and not leaving her a msg when she was sick. Neither we or her brother had said anything to her, she said. (I don't know her brother, I barely know her.)

Eirik stood there kind of shocked because, she ambushed him with anger from out of nowhere.

Eirik came home and told me this, and I though okay, she is upset I didn't send her an sms. And that is fair enough, I should have sent her a text. (she could also have sent me a text you know) And she probably is tired and have a lot of stuff going on, since she mentioned her brother which we have no idea who is. So I just thought Eirik met her when she was in a bad mood and took it out on the wrong person.

So sent her a text saying : Hi. We should have a talk and sort this issue, if you ofc are interested. I don't think it's fair that Eirik gets caught in the middle of a fight or similar things, if you are upset with me. And I think we should talk, instead of taking it over the phone. Just let me know what day suits you and I can come visit.

Her response was, I don't know. I think it was out of line and very harsh.
She said:
I don't want any contact with you. Erik (she doesn't even know his name, which is Eirik, Erik and Eirik are two different names)....
Erik has been a guest here and have talked to my husband multiple times.
I heard you had anxiety because I was ill. (I have major anxiety when it comes to different illnesses and I get anxiety attacks where I think I will die, I can't control it. It happens sometimes just by talking about certain things)

You could have been more considerate  and kept that anxiety for yourself.
I am not giving you another second of my time. I myself have been both mentally and physcially ill, but I hope I have never been that selfish after showing so much warmth and friendliness. You could have sent a message through Eirk and many other opportunities
You have had a bunch of time. I have been sick a year and no Tine. Don't send me cold texts and suggestions to me. You and I are in different leages. You shall leave me be!!
Look in the mirror and stop thinking I am something that should concern you. 
In this world it's important to take care of the good sides in people. Self centered people can stay far away from me, after taking advantage of my hospitality. To think we have something to talk about.

Only reason I am sacrificing time to answer your text is that, you are going to walk past us, never talk to us, and never talk to our dog. I feel sorry for my dog and Nemo who were such good friends and don't understand that friendship matters. Dogs are faithful and loving and thankfully can't understand humans.

The only thing I am left with is that I have learned not to let anyone in. Sorry for the dogs who could have had a nice friendship. You shall leave me be. You have hurt me deeply and I am no  longer at your service. I hope you have learned something. I am now done with using my time on you. And will rather spend my time with the people I love and that care about me. I have a long way to go and you shall leave me and my dog alone. We dont need you and don't want you.

So yeah, that was the msg she sent me. A person who visited her a few times over a summer. I was wrong not sending her a text, I admit that.

But I did, as she wanted me to, to sent her a msg through Eirik.
She herself have worked in the mental healthcare and should know a bit about mental illness right?

Not one second did she stop and think, HEY maybe something was going on in her life as well.
She doesn't know our names correctly, she doesn't know how old we are, she doesn't know any personal things about us. All she knows is that we have a dog called Nemo, and we came to play with her dog.

She doesn't know what have happened in my life this year, having to worry about my brother who we thought could be fatally ill. That I though I might have cancer in my ovaries. That I have had anxiety attacks where I had to lay in bed, that I have gone to therapy, that I am on medicine for both depression and anxiety. That I have a hard time just staying a float because my depression.

That I have went home crying because I have been met with being ignored. Cause I am scared of being rejected. That I am a person that don't let anyone in because I am scared that they might hurt me and turn me down, so I don't make friends.

She knows nothing about me, cause she talks drama and she talks about her and her family issues.

All she knows, I have a dog, I have a BF and I have had issues with anxiety.

To think that a person with so little insight, have worked with people with mental issues is to me very scary.

First course I went through in therapy was about understanding that there is more to people then meets the eye. You don't judge a book by it's cover. People have issues you don't know about.

I told her I was sorry she had to go through so much stuff, with her illness etc. I never ever talked bad about her, I was a grownup and wanted to talk face to face. I wanted to sort this out.

Now, I don't.

I thought she would want to be with her loved once. And I didn't want to come over there and trouble her with my issues, not that she would listen anyways.

She even wrote in her text herself that I should keep my anxiety for myself, which is what I actually did duuh. She wanted me to send her a msg through Eirik, which I did.. I sent her best wishes through her husband as well..

So while I admit, I could have sent her a text, I can only see that is the only thing I have done wrong and I tried apologizing for that. Even after that msg she sent there, I was polite, I said I was sorry for everything bad that had happened to her. That I wish her and her dog the best.

My responce:
One msg and I shall leave you in peace. I did a big mistake not sending you a text. I said Hi to you through your husband, Always said to Eirik to send his wishes from me to you, through your husband., I am sorry you have been through so much. I have had my stuff to deal with, with a brother who had a cyste in his back, and we thought he might die. I have been sick in bed because of anxiety of dying. I though you would want to spend time with your family, instead of the stress from me and Nemo.

I walked past your house multiple times, but you were never there, or you never wanted to say hello to me and ignored me. I though you would want to give me another chance, but you are your own boss and can decide things for yourself.

My whole life I have been conflict shy, and therefor after a while I never did send a text cause I was scared. Sorry that I have let you down and hurt you, I hope you and your dog get well. 
Try to understand there is two sides of a story and that I never heard from you either, and though you wanted to be in peace and deal with your issues.
When I went to visit you, you just ignored me and I didn't dear do anything and turned around ad went home. Sure it's late to late to apologize now, just don't let this affect others you meet. Don't let this out on Nemo and Eirik because you have issues with me. Wish you well. 
Tine.

I realize now, I was way to kind in my msg. I layed myself out flat. I hate that about myself. She was so mean to me and Eirik. Saying she felt bad for Nemo. Basically saying we were horrible human beings. Well fuck that. This was one crazy ass bitch, who obviously feeds from drama.

I don't need this toxic shit in my life. I barely knew her, she knows nothing about us, she can't even fucking spell Eirik's name right. WTF...

I am glad this happened now that I am strong enough to deal with it myself and not get crushed by it. I am glad I am in treatement to get better,

I am glad my life doesn't revolve around some stranger, but around my family.

So that was the story :P Maybe I am in the wrong, maybe I am a selfish bastard. Well FINE, I can live with that.

Thursday, 9 July 2015

I need suggestions for challenge!

Hola, mi amigos!!
I'm in a good mood today. Woke up early, just had my coffee, posted my new vlog on the channel and here I am.
Vlog here btw! :P

My channel reached 140 subs as I was asleep last night, and I am very happy about that. 10 more and we need to celebrate, but what should I do? Have an eating challenge of some sort? Or do something special?

I need suggestions from you guys :D Maybe eat a sour lemon as fast as I can, or find a chili? (please don't say chili :P)
I go out and do something, or just talk? Let me know what you all would like and I will see what suggestions is doable :D

Morning face inc :


Excited to see if/what you all come up with!! :D

Have a lovely day!

Monday, 6 July 2015

Exciting, I know!

Hello!
I know I am neglecting the blog a bit. I haven't had much to say or share I guess. Sometimes we have the urge to write, other times we don't.

Reasons might be because I am not super involved into any particular game at the moment.
And I am not the kind of "nerd" that read about tons of games and get super excited and dig into all the info there is.

So I end up with not writing I guess.

Recently picked up Heavensward - ffxiv.

Just playing an hour here an hour there on Cactuar where the blogger gang is.
I feel it's hard to really dig into the game because I don't see me going into any end game conent, and that is usually what I look forward to. But as I often have lags I don't feel I can join in with things like that anyways. I would just be more of an annoyance to the team then help. So yeah, I just dabble alone mostly, leveling my lowbie Miqote.


I did try the new race, Au Ra, I adored her, but in the end the horns just got to me. They started to annoy me so I reverted back to a kittycat as I had some potions left over since I made the character.


My goal is to get to one of the new classes, the new healer - Astrologian. I have no idea how they work, but I love healing so I have to try it.

I also want to try and get the new tank - Dark Knight, they wield big ass swords, so yeah, I have to try that.

The Machinist, which is the third new class doesn't really interest me. It uses some sort of guns and I don't really like using guns when there are other options.


I am still doing my youtube thing. 

It's going okay I guess. I have my doubts from time to time if it's something I should continue with or not. But hopefully that doubt will back off soon. I have had a period where I have felt very good about the things I do. But sometimes I just feel it's a waste of my time and others. 

I guess I just find that I am not an entertaining person, and have doubts that people will watch.
Got to remember why I started with it in the first place, but it's easy to forget.

I just have such a hard time getting involved in things, and really dig into it. Make it become a part of me and my daily life. I don't know where to get my inspiration from, how to get creative. They say creativity is something you can teach yourself over time, I am just struggling with it right now.


(shameless promoting my channel on blog)

Also think it has something to do with my depression. As I mentioned I have had a good period now over the past few months, but this last week has been a hard one. I have struggled to just get out of bed and try to do anything. Often I have gone to bed around 6 oclock and just slept a few hours, because I didn't want to be awake. 

I think I might have to have a hard think about my channel, maybe switch it up a bit with more personal things rather then gaming. Seems people enjoy my random things more then my gaming things, and I do enjoy doing vlogs as well, so why not. 

As I have mentioned before, I have been thinking about restarting my channel, but I have worked hard to get the little bunch of viewers I have now, so I am still undecided about that. 

One tiresome thing about Youtube is that it feels like a horrible game, people run around, subscribing to get a sub back. Watching a minute of the video just to have a comment to say, some don't even watch and write down generic comments like: Great Video, check out my channel. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. 

For one, it makes me feel that what I am doing is totally useless and that my content sucks, it fucks up my retention on my videos because people watch 2 seconds of my video and moves on, which means my ranking gets even worse then it was. 

I hate that game, and I don't want to be apart of it. I watch the whole video when I go around commenting, I say what I liked in the video, give a like and move on. If I don't like it, I move on to some other channel I like instead. Generic comments and sub for sub is just a fucking annoyance.

Yes I sub for people I know who have subbed for me, because I KNOW THEM, and want to support and watch them. THAT is totally different.

Sorry, I just had to get that out, been annoying me for quite some time. Because you can't avoid it, it's everywhere. 

What else? SHRIMPROONIES!

We got shrimps! TINYTINY shrimps. We bought a tiny tank, and 6 shrimps. And we suddenly had 7 shrimps, so there was a baby too!



Sadly one shrimp died today, hopefully it was an old shrimp and no disease.  Exciting I know. Shrimps :P Well I think they are a funny bunch that just crawl and swim around. Hopefully there will be many baby's! 


Wednesday, 1 July 2015

Unboxing Video - Geek Fuel!

I just subbed for a nerdbox! I could not help myself hehe. I decided to go for Geek Fuel's box, as the one I wanted did not ship to Norway and I don't really like the Loot Crate. Loot Crate seems to have a theme each time and if you don't like the theme then, well, you just get a whole box of something you don't like

Anyways I got my box yesterday, it is the box for June, but shipping took 2 weeks since I live in Norway and the box comes from the US. So while I get the box a bit later then US people, it was still fun to get :D

So here I am, getting my prezzies!


If you want a box, be sure to use my referral link :D

Here --->  https://www.geekfuel.com/zGaMLz

Hope you enjoy the video :)

Thursday, 25 June 2015

Not a vlog, but a vlog :P

I made a short video of my walk with Eirik and Nemo. It's not a vlog per say, I don't talk much. More like clips of the walk with some scenery from where I live, the forest, birds chirping :)
It's a bit different from what I usually do, gaming videos.

But I thought maybe some people would enjoy seeing some of the Norwegian nature, it's not the most fantastic scenery you see in Norway, but I count myself lucky to live where I live so I can just take a stroll in the forest and listen to the birds and bugs flying around :)

Hope you enjoy it too! Colors are way more bland then they were in real life, it was my bad camera and filter, so sorry about that.

Music is from FFXIV ARR - Gridania themed, thought it was some nice music and sort of fitting :)


Wednesday, 17 June 2015

Vanilla Minecraft with Missy

Hey!  How is everything with you all ?

I am just making a short post to shamelessly promote my video, because it's suppose to be smart to actually blog your videos as well heh. Yes shameless, but you know :)

I tried some Minecraft a month ago, while I had tons of fun, I found out it was to difficult with the mods I was using so decided to stop making the videos.

But as I really love Minecraft, I thought maybe going back to the start - Vanilla Minecraft, I might actually manage to play hehe. So I started recording yesterday, Vanilla, no mods, no cheats. Just me and the chickens hanging out.

Here is my first day/night, let's see if I can manage to stay alive and get a roof over my head.

Hope you like it, it's around 15 minutes, hopefully I can shorted them down to 10 minutes from the next one. Leave a like and comment if you feel like it. Remember to make suggestions as to what I should do, and I might just do it! (yes ofc I will)


Other then that, everything is going great right now. Finally got my butt of the sofa and cleaned the house, which was about frikking time. Yes, it was a bit bad (ashamed) But now it's really nice around here and I just love getting up in the morning seeing that things are in order and I don't have that guilt hanging over me.

Feel free to share the video, it would help a ton!

Have a nice day everyone ♥

Missy.

Wednesday, 10 June 2015

NBI Safari Contest Winners, Yes I am one of those !

Hey everyone, how ya'll doing ?

I am here today to say this :
I WON 2 categories in the NBI Safari contest! What? That is so neat, cause, you know, I LOVE ME SOME SCREENSHOTS!! Go check at Murf's post at the pink link ! DO IT!

My entries that won was:

The Selfie, my trusted lalafell went for the gold medal aight!! You go little mojofell! (ffxiv arr)



While I put these images under landscape, it ended up in a bonus category:

The best non - MMO Screenshot (pics from Minecraft)


This image was an extra:


I did enter another category as well,
Scariest place, but it did not go for gold, our piggie did not cut it! BUT have a look one more time at the lovely picture okay ? :P


Thank you all who participated, voted and just browsed, esp thank you to those who voted for me, because, you made me win and put a gigantic smile on my face. Yes I get really happy for these small things.

And the biggest thanks to Murf / C.T Murphy for making this contest happen, to try and get the blogger community together for something fun. You show such enthusiasm, you are a joy to have in this community, I think we all see you as a dear friend and we love you to bits! You are an awesome and very special person and bring so much to this community of ours!!! Huge hugs! Thank you for spending so much time on this for us all!

Tuesday, 9 June 2015

Tiny update for you gang!

Hello everyone. I am really sorry I have been so quiet on the blog. I have been very busy with trying to kick start my Youtube channel again. As I had a 3-4 month break it has taken some work to make new videos, getting in touch with the Youtube gang again, trying to share the love and stuff like that.

Real life stuff.
Well, I have finished my first group in therapy, it all went very well and I think I have learned a lot.

How to explain this, I have learned not to judge, like, I can never know what people are thinking, so I should not assume anything at all. I should rather try to understand, look, listen before I draw any conclusion what so ever. First impressions should not mean anything, there is more to things then the eye can see.
While I have always known this, it's another thing to live by this.
And one of the last thing the therapist said to the group was, try not give a damn so much ( directly translated heh)

I have written all this stuff down before, but I guess the base of therapy is to feed us with a spoon till it sticks :P And while it's not sticking properly yet, I am really far on my way.

In August a new group begins, where the topics and theme is not set. We as a group are going to decided that, so it's going to be challenging and hard. Talking about ourselves is going to be scary, sharing experiences and things that upsets us all is going to be very draining. I expect a lot of tears, some anger and frustration, but that's what we need to get out in order to move on. And I am looking forward to it, and a bit annoyed that I have to have 2-3 months break from therapy!

Youtube!
Yeah, having loads of fun. I am growing slowly but steady. And I find that growing slowly is giving me an engaging group of subscribers aka friends, I have the last month met a lot of new youtubers and they are an awesome bunch of people, much like the blogger community. I am now at 116 subs and aiming for 150 when fall comes. It's a lot of subs, and while I feel it might be an impossible goal, I have found that making a goal, magically makes things happen :P

Right now I am playing Secret of Mana, Penumbra Black Plague and had my first collab with Roo the Kangaroo, playing Diablo 3, which was awesomely fun!

Secret of Mana Playlist
Penumbra Black Plague Playlist
Diablo 3 with Roo

While I am not an expert at this, that would be silly, then I would never learn anything new or grow.... I still have fun with it and think I am improving everyday :) My latest video is a montage of some of my moments which I think is kind of funny! And seem to have gotten some positive responses :) Take a look at what you are missing, bwahah ! That's all folks!



Wednesday, 20 May 2015

Landscape - #NBI2015Safari

The Screenshot Safari - Landscape

Yeah this is from Minecraft. I chose this picture cause I don't think people would expect a landscape photo from this game, just because how pixelated it is. But I have installed a shader and I quite enjoy how it looks now. It's very atmospheric, especially at night.


Yeah this is a foggy night actually :) Anyways the first photo is the one I have put into the category, this is just an extra.

So as you can see I have started some Minecraft again, and I decided to record it. I have a bit more experience in talking to the screen now and thought I would give it another go.


Monday, 18 May 2015

Celebrating is exhausting

Today I used the whole day celebrating the Norwegian Constitution day (national day). Me and Eirik went to visit my mom, then dad and at the end we went to his mom.

We enjoyed some ice-cream, cakes, sausages, potato salads, then some more ice-cream, strawberries, shit ton of coffee. Then at the last visit at Eirik's mom, we had some more cake (s) and some tea.

Bleh feel kind of sick now thinking about it hah, but that's how it is when you have 2 families, and parents are divorced.

I didn't really feel like going, just wanted to cuddle up on the sofa, but I am glad I went. Not only is it good for me to get out, but it is always nice to see family, although you don't always feel like it when you are sitting at home on your ass being lazy.

I am now super tired, but a good tired I guess, so I will have to find my bed soon! Hopefully it's where I left it..... (duh so dumb joke)

I made a short vlog today, celebrating 100 subs, and showing off my weird dress. Take a peak at my derping...


Hope all of you had a lovely Sunday, I sure did.

As for my YouTube channel, I have been a bit slack with uploading videos, but my Secret of Mana is at least on a steady schedule.


Thursday, 14 May 2015

Scariest Place #NBI2015Safari

Yes the Screenshot Safari, I mentioned it in another post previously.
Today, I have a photo. I was unsure if I was going to put it under Landscape or Scariest Place.

I ended up with Scariest Place.

Can you think of anything more scary then getting this up in your face ?

How does this relate to the NBI ? Well, as a starter blogger we have many worries. We are scared of looking like ass's. We are scared of falling straight on our ass and fail with the bloggin aren't we, at least as "newbs". And last but not least, most of us have at one point been scared of meeting those assholes that wander around the internet, the one that might come to your blog acting like a total ass and saying really nasty stuff.

Well, the blogger world seems like a scary place, the internet is certainly full of buttholes, but OUR blogging community, is nothing to be afraid of!

A day of ease.

It has been an eventful day.
I have for 2 months now complaining about having pain in the lower side of my stomach close to the hip. With my hypocondria tendences I make up all kinds of things that can be wrong instead of going to the most logical reason, which most people do.

I have been to the doctors two times now for different check ups, and I am finally at ease. Even though the test results won't come back for a few weeks I am now pretty confident that I am as healthy as can be expected. I sit a lot on my ass, so I am not the most fit person obviously but medically I believe now, for the first time in years that there is nothing wrong with me.

And OMG what a feeling.
Not to have that worrying nagging voice saying there is something seriously wrong, it is now silent. And I hope to keep it like that for a long time, now all I wish for is that my brother get some happy news about that cyst that has been growing in his back. Hopefully it is just something that can be "easily" be dealt with.

100 Subscribers!
Yeah we reached the goal everyone. Today we finally got the 100th person to subscribe on the YouTube channel, it was actually a familiar face that hit that button, the man behind The Ancient Gaming Noob. Also known as Wilhelm Arcturus on Twitter.

Thank you all for subscribing, I see this is as our channel, well those who watch anyways. I want us to grow together, play games and have fun together. I am so pleased that I have reached one of my goals. It has taken a long time, some people grow super fast, I am not like that. But I haven't gone around doing the sub4sub thing either.

Hopefully I can do a celebratory 100 sub video, not that I know what I am suppose to do with it but ey. A thank you I guess ?

WoW - Strangest Tribe
I have for a while now waiting for a spot in a leveling team. We have groups of 4 people without heirlooms who level together. It is hard, harder then you would expect, people are squishy, we lack dps because we have one person less and no OP gear. And I have finally gotten a spot into a group.
I got my first testrun today and we had loads of fun. So happy I can take part of this.

You get that feeling of doing it vanilla style, so hard. You have to use crowd-control and pull very carefully.

We call our self Team Selfie






So yeah I just wanted to share some happy vibes with you all.

I am still going with my leveling videos from WoW, which I am starting to edit a bit more from now on. I realize it's a bit tedious watching so long videos. But it's hard to cramp in stuff. But yeah I shall make those shorter.

The same with Secret of Mana. From episode 5 I am editing out a lot of the grind, and just keeping the story and boss fighting, with a few trash packs to show off some of the "dungeons".

Let me know if you want me to do anything on the channel. I can do something with face cam again soon, just need to find a sweet game that can fit with using a cam. I think mostly horrors fit with that. I am not that expressive I think, but I do scare easily :D

Saturday, 9 May 2015

Creature of habit and routines.

Personal Stuff...

I went to Nav (norwegian labour and welfare administraion) on Wednesday. This is where I get my support financially, and this is where I will get my support after I am done with my therapy. They will give me a spot into a group that we find fitting where we work, but it is fitted for people like me.

We can do things outdoor, tend to animal and good old fashion labour work.

We set up a plan, that I would not need to contact them until January next year, so until then I am officially "sick".

What we intend to do when the time comes is to give me something to do, with routines, a secure setting, a place to feel safe and the opportunity to surround myself with people like me. We will learn from each other, grow with each other and learn to be a part of the society around us.

I am looking forward to this.

The keywords that makes me look forward to this is routines and a secure environment. A set schedule, no sudden changes. I hate it, it scares the living crap out of me.

Every time something new happens at DPS, where I go to therapy, I get explained and shown every room we are going to enter the next time I visit. This ensures that I will get to the right place at the right time, and stops my worries. I don't have to use an entire week worrying about being at the right spot. "Am I at the right place? What if this isn't where I am suppose to be? Do I need to talk to someone I don't know, do I need to ask for directions? Oh my god, what if I show of at the wrong day?" Thoughts spin out of control to weird places and I start with scenarios not likely to happen.
Yes this is what goes through my head, if I don't know what's going to happen, if I don't feel save and secure about events.

With DPS and this group I will attend, I will always have a "to go to" person around me, who understands me, will help me and don't look at me strangely because I am insecure and asks about every small thing so I don't do them wrong.

I will have a "companion" for bus rides if I need that, and I will be totally safe.

Why am I writing all of this ?

Well this is who I am. All the things that are happening in my real life is real. I am stuck at home, even though I try my best to live life, I am a scared person, I need routines and schedules with a lot of things.

I react maybe differently then others to certain events, discussions and what not because I am burdened by this anxiety. It's stuck inside me, and it controls me a lot of the time. Which means I hardly speak up, on rare occasions I do, and people misunderstand me. Think I am overreacting or just plain out mad. I have a hard time explaining how I feel, which is why I am at DPS in the first place to learn how to talk about feelings.

I often don't get bound to things or people. But when I feel safe, I get really attached and I hold on for dear life. I am not a stalker lol, although it almost sounds like it now....
but there are select few people out in the world that I get attached to.

This might be the cause of why I have guild hopped so many times in my mmo gaming time. Because the second I don't feel safe or maybe not wanted, I run off with my tail between my legs and forget about the place I was. It's better to run off, then stick it out and see that there might be a place there for me after all, it's just me being more scared of the negative then, maybe the positive that can come.

Same with work, relationships, friendships, the thought that I might succeed in something.
I truly belive that I cannot succeed in anything.

Sometimes I lie to myself and everyone else and say: SURE I CAN!
Flat out lies...


Thursday, 7 May 2015

In the spirit of #NBI2015Safari

I did not plan to participate much in the NBI this year, because I have a lot on my plate and I am really drained mentally.

But I can't resist joining in on this event.

Murph's Challenge :

For my part in the NBI2015I want to see your screenshots. Each week in May, I am challenging everyone to publish a post featuring a favorite screenshot and why that screenshot best fits a particular theme. You can choose freely from the list of themes, but please only submit one post per theme. Considering this is a weekly event, that means only four overall submissions are allowed, so make them count!


So I have looked through some folders, but definitely not all :P And I picked this one for the selfie picture. I had a few to chose from, but this was one of the first screenshots I took from her at the launch of FFXIV ARR. You know I love my lalafell even though I am not playing her at the moment.


I imagine her sitting there thinking about the adventures ahead, just like the NBI, many adventures and thoughts ahead as a blogger.



So this was my contribution to this week. Hope you like it.

Saturday, 2 May 2015

Newbie Blogger Initiative 2015

One year ago I started my blogging adventure. I have changed a lot since then, I started with screenshots only and then when May came, Jaedia told me to sign up for the Newbie Blogger Initiative. I took a few days before I actually did, I was scared to join anything involved with actual bloggers. I was scared of getting mocked about my blog and writing, but in the end I took the step and joined. And yes that was the best idea ever, really. Without it I would not have been blogging today.

What is The Newbie Blogger initiative ?
Well most of you who visit knows what this is, but I do have a few readers that don't actually blog, but maybe you would like to start. This is the time to do it.



Newbie Blogger Initiative is a grassroots community effort to support gamers who want to blog, vlog, stream, and podcast their passion for video games. The NBI was founded by Justin Olivetti of Massively in 2012, and it’s been carried on by the community an annual event.

The purpose of NBI is pretty basic.
Promote aspiring game bloggers.
Establish a friendly support network to nurture those bloggers.
Create an on-going community for bloggers that’s available 24/7/365


I encourage every person who wants to start blogging about gaming to visit http://www.newbiebloggerinitiative.com/ and sign up.

I got in touch with so many bloggers last year, they encouraged me, supported me and gave me tons of help. I started to write because of this initiative, before that I never really wrote much. And after the event had ended I started to open up more, and started to write more personal stuff as well, because they supported me and gave me faith in my self.

You can ask about anything, you can get a mentor, there are different events, like gaming events or just blogging event. Sometimes you may even get offered to join in a podcast episode, I did last year and it scared the crap out of me, but I am so happy I did it. It helped me get out of my shell, it helped me not to be so nervous and that led me to get the courage to start with YouTube videos.

At the end of the event there will be nominations for different kinds of categories and you might win the awesome badges they hand out. It's just a picture, but I actually won 2 prices last year and I have wore them with pride the whole year, and will continue to do so because they mean a lot to me.

So if you want to join :

The most important steps to follow to get involved are as follows:
-Follow @newbieblogger2 on Twitter. If you don’t have Twitter, get it. Everyone uses it, and it will keep you the best informed.


-Bookmark and/or add www.newbiebloggerinitiative.com to your reader. It will have major announcements posted on the front page.

-Sign up for a forum account, and add your blog to the list of sponsors or newbies depending on your status. Don’t know which would be more appropriate for you? Feel free to ask.


Wednesday, 29 April 2015

Thoughts about many things.

Heyaaaaaaah.
So I have started all that recording of WoW. I am currently uploading my fifth episode. And I have started to record a tanking series too, that I will put up when I am done with the first one / or in the middle of the other series.
Playlist here btw SELF PROMO!

Leveling an undead priest.

And I have had this thought about my YouTube channel. I mean I started it with a few horrors and then Indie games, and it's so far just a little channel. But, now I have shifted to WoW. Do I need to rebrand my channel / make a new one ? The WoW related stuff does it really fit into my channel ? Will people expect only WoW stuff there, will my other subs think: "OMG, WOW. BOORING - this isn't what I signed up for."

I mean it's just a tiny channel with 88 subs.
Nothing major, so I could stay put where I am, or start over. None of the options is any big deal really.

But all I hear everywhere is that you need to keep sort of the same content on your channel so people know what to expect.

On the other hand, I have started to not give a F***, and do what I want, and try not to care so much about what others think or might not think.

But I do love making videos, and while I will never be able to make a living off it, it will be a hobby of mine for many years to come. I just wonder how I should go about it.

Should I have 2 separate channels, should I have one WoW and one Indie + Let's Play and keep things tidy, or should I give zero F***s and just put everything up there, from flash games, to indie games to vlogs and WoW. I am confused.

And then there is all my old crappy videos, should they stay on there, or should they be removed. All this random thoughts about something so insignificant.

I do want a clean easy channel to navigate through, and I do want people to be happy when I upload something, but when there is so much different stuff going on there, will it confuse people, will they just pack up and leave? Well if they wanna leave, they can of course. I don't really worry that much about it, I don't want people to watch something they don't want to. That's bad for me and them.

What are your thoughts ? What would you do ?

Another note

The anxiety stuff... Here it comes.... :P I had two meetings today, they both went well. I took a bloodtest and I will have to wait for the results for a while... Meh I hate waiting for stuff like that, but it's just for checking certain levels. Hopefully I am not dying !

The therapist or psychologist, whatever they are calling themselves, told me to take care of myself better. I told him that I had celebrated my birthday and made the day just about me, that it felt really nice and that I hadn't been that happy in a very long time, I wanted to do this every birthday from now on. I congratulated myself, spammed photos and sang songs all day long. And all that stuff.

And he said: You know you are allowed to do those things when you don't have your birthday also. You aren't self absorbed or a narcissist for giving yourself attention. SOO, I am going to start taking ( yes TAKING :P ) more attention, I'm going to take attention AND give myself more attention. Yes. More me, less other people. Might sound weird to you guys, as all you read about on this blog is me, but in real life it's another deal.

He had the impression that I was so scared of what other people thought of me, that I didn't take care of myself. (hard for me to translate this conversation, so I hope you get what I mean) I don't have to have an excuse to do something nice for myself. I don't have to have an excuse to be happy, or to
do things that might point the attention to me. Everyone does that, it's how humans are, so so shall i!

So at the end of the day, all is fine, I have my moments of thinking OMG I am sick, I am going to die. But overall I feel okay.  He gave me permission to use my medication, I have been taking the anxiety medication, but I have been feeling guilty about taking them, but I shouldn't. So now I am going to take them when I feel the anxiety coming, instead of when it's at it's peek.

Goodday all / Goodnight all! :D

Saturday, 25 April 2015

Recording wow ?

Hello.
I hope you are having a wonderful weekend so far, I certainly am. I love Fridays now as it's the guild's dungeon night as I have mentioned. And I love hanging out with them and chatting on teamspeak. It's a highlight in the week really, sounds a bit sad doesn't it. But it isn't. It's just like hanging out with your friends, having a laugh and enjoying our hobby.

Silly me though, I don't have any screenshots because I am typing on my laptop and I have gone to bed. And all my pictures are on my desktop, but oh well I am sure you'll live.

I have started with YouTube again as I mentioned in my last post. And today I had the urge of starting to record some World Of Warcraft. I have always been very hesitant about making leveling videos and dungeon videos etc. Because there are so much of it out there, and it's been done to death.
Also been hesitant because there are so many trolls in the WoW communtiy and I didn't really want the hassle or the trolls that might stop by ruining my moods. There is also this, either you are playing the game and not interested in watching leveling videos or you just over and done with wow. Or you have never ever EVER been interested in the game. But fuck it.

Here is the thing, I am still interested in it. And I enjoy it, especially now with my guild. And I enjoy it even more when I am recording because then I can talk and do whatever. I have a purpose to the leveling sort to speak. So yes I started to record WoW. I made myself a new priest, probably my 15th priest or something. And I hit that record button. I loved it, I enjoyed it, I had tons of fun with it. And I am currently uploading it. And you know what, if no one watches it, I am okay with it because I had fun with it. I forgot my anxiety and all that messed up shit. So that is a super good thing.

I am excited.

I did start with a fully heirloomed character. But I think maybe I should change it up, either level up without them, and just quest, or just record every dungeon once, I don't know. I will see if there is any response at all and see what people say. If people aren't interested I will just carry on with my heirlooms and carry on as I did today, cause even though everything is super easy with heirlooms it can still be fun. But if people watch, and have challenges that they would like to see while I'm leveling, that would be great and I would attempt to do those things. But only if people would watch it. I wont go out of my way to do something and people just weren't even interested in what they suggested, that would just be silly.
I am just happy that I found something fun to do.

Anyways, that was just a short update that I had on my mind and wanted to share before I went to sleep, video will be up in a few hours.

Thanks for stopping by.

Missy / Tine.

Thursday, 23 April 2015

Testing my microphone on a game called CrossCode

So my new fab microphone is finally here ! My sexy Blue Yeti. It's huge, but most of you know that, it is a bit awkward finding out where on earth I am suppose to place it when I am playing cause I need to have it infront of me AND not block my screen haha.

Anyways, I love it. It's got a strong sound, and it is 20 times better then my headset. The soundfile is easy to adjust in audacity as well. I am curious as to how it will work on TeamSpeak though, cause I probably need different settings when using TS then when recording with audacity, but I will figure it out.

So I decided I needed to test it. I made a Norwegian vlog first, cause I didn't know what to do in English but in the end I found a lovely demo of a game on Gamejolt.




CrossCode is an action RPG, in a 16bit kind of graphical look to it.

I loved this game, it's really well made, the story is cool, music is awesome and I love the character Lea that I play. It's only two parts as it's not a finished game, but I really hope they get the funding they need to continue on it.

So this is me testing my new shiny microphone. I hope you enjoy, I did.

Sunday, 19 April 2015

This year brought me many new friends.

Celebrated my birthday today, one day before I actually turn 30. We had wonderful weather, sun was shining, ate chocolate cake, the kids got icecream and I couldn't ask for anything else. I got everything I wanted, meeting my family, forgetting about my problems and wonderful gifts - clothes, money and some jewelry for my dress that I am wearing on our national day. (17th of May).

Off to throw ball with my nephew,
I was really happy that everyone invited had the time to come, but when everyone had left, and it was time for me and Eirik to head home, I didn't feel like it. So we took a surprise trip to my father who lives like 10 minutes away from my mom. We drove off to his place and luckily he was home enjoying the sun on his veranda. He didn't have much time for a visit, but we did manage to get a cup of coffee and talk for a bit. It was lovely, I got to see my entire family today and that was all I wished for.

This year has been a hard year for me, with all the anxiety, finally starting to get some treatment. But it has taken me a lot of energy and scary moments to take these steps.

Here is to a better year, a year with more progress and to learn how to deal with my problems.
Here is to all the new friends  I met during the past year, I love you all, as much that is possible to care for someone you have never met. You have supported me, comfort me, you have been here, listened, given me advice and given me a lot of joy and laughter. You are all unique and special people who have gotten a huge space in my heart.

Also a thanks to my new guild Strangest Tribe, they are a part of my new friends, they have given me more confidence in myself. Yes by letting me be me, welcomed me with open arms, making me feel apart of their group - well our group now. I have opened up on teamspeak I EVEN SANG THERE (for 2 sec and it was so bad I almost cried), they have let me try tanking which has given me more confidence also, trying out something I am scared of but actually doing pretty well with. I hope our guild will live for a long time, it's a hobby I love to spend my time on now (gaming,videos,forumstuff) And I hope to have long long friendship with each and everyone of them!

Thank you for a year, that seemed very bad, but actually brought me so so soooo many new friends.

Missy

Friday, 17 April 2015

What have I been up too?

Yesterday I wrote my Norwegian blog, Much frustration and annoyance from my side when writing it. Mostly about my anxiety towards death by cancer. It's one of my biggest fears, which consumes me when I am home. When I am not at home, that fear dissapears, being replaced by the fear of people instead. So that was my frustration last night, me not getting any downtime from any sorts of anxiety.

But that was not the intent of this blog. I...hmm, I didn't have any ideas for this blog, I just felt that it was about time I talked to you guys again. I don't want to get out of touch with you.

What have I been doing lately you ask ?

Well I skipped this weeks therapy session. I woke up that day, getting ready to fetch my clothes and as I got up, my back just failed. Immense pain between by shoulder and spine. I think I pulled a muscle, if that is the correct translation. I couldn't stand, I couldn't lay down, it was all just pain pain pain.

I tried to get up properly, I needed a shower before I went to the meeting but, I couldn't stand so I just had to make that call that today I need to be home. That was a bit annoying, but couldn't be helped. I will be there next time. Thankfully the pain was gone the next day, so it's all good now :)

I have watched the entire first season of Daredevil, and I loved it. I think it was a pretty good first season, bad part is, now we have to wait till next !


I have rewatched all the Star Wars movies, just because and found out that I really dislike part 1 and 2. The third is alright, and it's is nice to have seen them again, to make more sense of the 3 older movies. I cannot wait till number 7 is out, weee !


Strangest Tribe YouTube Channel

Yeah I made a channel for the guild. I have recorded some stuff and I thought it would be nice for the guild to have their own channel instead of putting the stuff on my channel. Makes it more organized and it let's people from the guild putting up stuff on it as well, since it's a shared channel. So far I have edited 2 videos for our guild.

It's just us having some Saturday night fun in some Pandaria raids. At first we tried 25man (was it heroic?) Heart of Fear, but we kept dying due to the boss mindcontrolling everyone. Safe to say you still need a certain number to kill that first boss, because once all is mindcontrolled, he resets. So we ended up having to clear it on 10 man, no one had actually cleared it on 10man so we couldn't go 10man Heroic version untill we cleared it 10man normal.

But that didn't matter, we still managed to have fun even though it was a walk in the park. And I made a video of us. Not much talking, but some. I was an idiot and didn't record my own voice, so a lot of the time people were just talking to thin air answering questions that wasn't heard. So I had to edit out most of the talking, which ended up with 3 short parts of small talk AND singing, about my panda. PFF :P



I know I know, most of you don't care for videos and youtubes that I make, but some might so I am sharing, cause I put effort into it. Going through an hour of footage or more, listening, watching it, editing it. Then having to find fitting music, making the music fit together and blablabla. So I share :) I love it, I had fun with it, and I love the people in it <3

Also made a video from us in Terrace of Endless Spring.
This video, well, it's mostly my pandarian ass, so not that exciting. But it took some effort into making this one too.



I am glad I can do this stuff, it helps me keep my mind of shitty things like death, being scared and all that dark stuff. I brightens my day, I can do something not only for me, but for the people in my guild. Even if people don't like it, that is fine, it was totally worth my time :) And I hope you watch the first one of us to get a feel for who we are and see why I love this guild.

Thank you.

Missy / Tine